Remember Lot’s wife (CASM 14)

Remember Lot’s wife? What keeps you looking back and turns you into a pillar of salt figuratively speaking and causes paralysis? What hinders you from going forward for God? Stepping out on faith into your purpose? Praise God He keeps using us even though we are not always running towards Him. We become stuck and fearful. Keep in mind there can come a time when He decides not to use you. Your lack of faith and trust will land you on the bench. He loves you but will gladly put you on the shelf out the way because you’re not allowing your light to illuminate greatly for the kingdom.

My pillar of salt

Many times, I have had the desire to do something for the Lord, but always talked myself out of it. I’m tired, not smart enough, no one wants to hear what I have to say. I used to believe the Bible for everyone else but not myself. If you needed prayer for healing, a new car, your job, your family I made it a priority. I would put everything I had into that prayer for you but didn’t believe it for myself.

What I did believe was the devil’s lies of worthlessness and that was my pillar of salt. Worthlessness became my best friend I treated it as something to be cherished and revered. It was nurtured, exalted, and put on a pedestal for many years and many years I just existed. I was thankful for life but felt like God had to drag me through each day with me kicking and screaming. I had no vision and I was quite miserable.

Choices I made or opportunities I didn’t pursue was due to listening to worthlessness and not the CREATOR. I allowed myself to live as a puppet under the influence of worthlessness being pulled, pushed, and bullied. I had to accept that listening to worthlessness and not Jesus took me on a route that God didn’t intend for me to go. Jesus still blessed and used me but my disobedience and fear made an eleven-day journey stretch into forty years.

Jesus boot camp

Between me and the Lord, I had to confront my past. It was one of those Jesus boot camp experiences a lot of tears, denial, temper tantrums, and running away. O, but taste and see that the Lord is good, He is the best partner to have come alongside you. Worthlessness started to become worthy and my vision became clearer. Now, I wish I could say that worthlessness never reared its ugly head again, but it did. I did not surround myself with people who could speak life into me, and I also didn’t reach out to people who could speak life. Daily time in the scriptures and with God was not a thing and church attendance was low or nonexistent. Those things that God was calling me out of I chose to go back into.

I had to repeat the Jesus boot camp experience all over again (a few times), and it was worse than the first time. I had to go deeper and continue to go deeper and be willing to be exposed before my Holy Savior and become broken and let Him renew and restore me. Eventually, I stepped into worthiness at some point, but it will always be a process because our enemy will never stop looking to devour you and me. Whatever your pillar of salt is know that you are making progress but don’t ever let up and don’t think other pillars of salt can’t emerge if you are not vigilant. Make it a regular practice to recall the many times God made a way despite your lack of ability.

Tools to withstand the attacks

The tools needed are not new or foreign to us I referenced them in the above section. It’s not a psychic/palm reader, a pill, strong drink, avoidance, fear, hiding, or running away. it’s the Word of God, prayer, and Christian fellowship. If we find our solution in the former we may not be here to tell our story. Worthlessness is too strong an enemy and so is your pillar of salt without Jesus at the forefront.

We know this but keep trying to bypass Jesus and find a loophole. We call on the world for advice knowing it will contradict everything that the Lord says. To beat the devil who is relentless and wants you to succumb to your pillar of salt. You must draw near to Jesus and forsake what you think you know. Leaning on your understanding or lack thereof and operating on feelings and emotions will lead to confusion. Who is the author of confusion?

In conclusion

One of my favorite and impactful scriptures is 1 Cor 1:27 KJV, But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty; I think, meditate, and focus on how God picked bruised Carol to speak and do on His behalf. Nothing supersedes the Lord Jesus, not even worthlessness.

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